A Broken Moment.

***SAD POST***

Today, my Jaydizzle is 9. Normally we would be at my Aunts, having birthday cake. She loved having Jay's birthday parties. We'd gather at her house, and have a good time. Not this year though. This year we are at home, minus the center of our world, and I just don't know what to do.

My child is left with a huge void in his life and the one and only thing I can do is be heart broken for him.

Their relationship was special. My Aunt was like his other parent. His father, oh what a train wreck. Long story short, he isn't involved at all. His life has always been Mommy and Mare Mare, and now that's had to change.

I made him a cake like every year. I did a lot of special things for him yesterday, with the help of my ex husband. Sadly, it doesn't remove the problem today. Not that it could anyway, but what parent doesn't want to make a tough situation easier for their child?

I don't want my child to ache. I don't want his heart to be broken I don't want his whole life to have to change.

He now wants another parent. Not that he doesn't want me, but he wants a dad. You can't make these things up, and he's finding out the hard way. I can't create a second parent for him, and even if I could, he's only going to learn that there is no way to replace people that you love, and that ache will still exist.

I wish I could make all things good for him, but that is beyond the human ability. It sucks to watch my child suffer.

Another day, another struggle, and another area life needs improved.